The moments leading up to my graduation ceremony were extremely visceral. It was a feeling that couldn’t be identified – only expressed through physical sensations. The uncomfortable pressure on my bladder. The sandpaper dryness of my mouth. The trail of goosebumps rising up on my arms. The softness of my robes against my skin. My legs shook ever so slightly as I stood, patiently queued by the side of the stage, waiting for my name to be called out. The staccato burst of the mike, my name a soft slow whisper sliding down my back. My movements were almost robotic as I strode up the stairs, shook hands with my head mistress, posed for a photograph. My brain running on autopilot as I went through the motions, trying to appear dignified as my hat tipped precariously further and further off my head.
And then it was over. I couldn’t shake the smile that had bloomed across my face. I would miss it, the little things – walking into form to find a lanky figure slumped at his desk, snoring ever so gently. Ms. N reading our names of the register in a voice that seemed too chirpy for 8am Sunday mornings and a wide, cheery smile. Walking through the FC on the way to class and seeing Young and Bishop talking animatedly in their glass offices. Rushing past a row of lockers on my way to class and being greeted by the sleepy morning sun filling the corridor with shards of rainbows. Chats over cups of coffee with Inseya in our little booth at the corner of the FC. The comforting sight of Hallatt's head bent over her laptop. I’d miss the routine of it – waking up at 6am every morning and going to classes, seeing familiar faces, walking down familiar hallways. The deadlines, the exams and the anguish all gave me a sense of purpose. Now I have nothing but long hours and books to fill the emptiness left behind by classes and friends and teachers and deadlines. I miss the person I had grown to become at Wellington. From someone who was afraid to put her hand up in class, I grew into someone who loves the sound of her own voice, who gets told off for chatting in class. There’s no connection quite like bonding with kids from your history class all awake at 3am studying for a test or finishing off notes, of moaning about TOK and Extended Essay or going through the trials and tribulations of having a terrible teacher, together as a class. The emotions surrounding me floated around like tethered balloons - the joy, anticipation and eagerness given off by my fellow students was palatable. The graduating class of 2017, we were all bound in an intricate way that we didn’t yet understand, maybe we never will but it was there and I felt it. And I was glad to have been a part of it, to be in a room full of future artists, writers, journalists, musicians, entrepreneurs, doctors and felt like I belonged. We were all part of a jigsaw puzzle, we had spent the last few years trying to put ourselves together, find out where we belonged and today as we stood on that stage, we could finally see exactly where we fit.
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